I have the best job in the world!
It didn’t come easily. Every
emotion you can think of has enveloped this journey… joy, sorrow, anger, fear, happiness.
I always thought that raising children would be my greatest reward. Unfortunately, without a good handbook, I
made my share of mistakes as I took the long, winding road of parenthood. I confess that with two children, a husband,
a job and housework even if there had been a book worth reading, I didn’t have
time to read it. I would like to say
that I learned by watching my mom raise me, but in my own little world of
growing up I didn’t fully recognize what she had done, nor do I remembered
specific “techniques” she used. So, I
guess you could say I was “winging it” on my own and being the best mother I
could be when my children were young.
But, this new job, oh I relish it so much. I don’t have to worry about doing things 100%
right. This job requires that I merely
have fun. It’s more relaxed and there’s
more time to do this job now. I can
choose to teach things along the way, but it’s not entirely up to me. It’s
like being given a second chance to love someone. When my own children were born I felt a love
so strong, I never imagined that I could feel that way again…. until my
grandchildren came along. The
topsy-turvy love I felt those many years ago re-ignited in my soul all over
again. My granddaughters provide much
laughter when they act silly, making funny faces and running to and fro. For me, the greatest happiness I experience
is in the quiet, snuggly moments in the early morning hours as they just begin
to come alive for the day – and in those same quiet, snuggly moments as we
settle down on the couch as they slowly drift off to sleep. Then, I nuzzle my nose on their soft, curly
locks, give them a kiss, and tuck them in for the night. Yes, this job is very rewarding indeed – and
well worth the wait to becoming “Yaya”.
(Written in 2011 when the twins were 3 years old.)
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